eneregy

[en-err-jee]

noun, plural energies.

1. the capacity for vigorous activity; available power:
I eat chocolate to get quick energy.

2. an adequate or abundant amount of such power:
I seem to have no energy these days.

3. Often, energies. a feeling of tension caused or seeming to be caused by an excess of such power:
to work off one’s energies at tennis.

4. an exertion of such power:
She plays tennis with great energy.

5. the habit of vigorous activity; vigor as a characteristic:
Foreigners both admire and laugh at American energy.

6. the ability to act, lead others, effect, etc., forcefully.

7. forcefulness of expression:
a writing style abounding with energy.

Source: Dictionary.com

 

Energy

What is it in your life that powers you, gives you your energy?

I’m on a quest to find and create more energy in my body.

For the past several years, it’s something that’s really rocked my existence. I’m ready for action, movement, going forward. I simply lack the energy I require to do so at this point. I know it’s coming. I know my body is healing and more is on its way. I’d really love there to be more, right here, right now.

I remember a time I had energy to burn. More than I could ever use, an excess and had to find ways to release it, use it up.

Perhaps that’s it.

I used it up before it’s expiration date.

Too much, too soon!

In attempting to make more energy (and stay as healthy as I can), I practice restorative yoga, mindfulness and stillness, actually stillness is still one of my most enjoyable places to be! Spending six months in silence can give you that.

I eat within my bodies requirements, move in ways as to not over exert myself, such as swimming (or some days it’s walking and talking in the pool!), Pilates, chi Kung, strolling in the great outdoors.

I get plenty of sleep, although never seeming quite enough.

All these I must admit, I do so sporadically, as I don’t yet have the energy to make them a regular occurrence. A part from the sleeping that is, that’s without doubt, a regular occurrence, I do that one every night and sometimes during the day too. No brainer really!

I use various techniques for releasing blocks in my body as well, on all levels – physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

I take my medicines (for want of a better word) to assist me further into wellness and releasing the toxins and imbalances within my body, such as the over accumulation of Mercury.

I listen to what my body is telling me it requires of me.

Hmm, on that note, I believe it’s time I review all my levels again to see where they’re at.

It can frustrate me at times how extremely debilitating it can be, this lack of energy I have.

For it’s a half life.

I do miss out on a lot of happenings in my world. I have great desires to be at many an event. No fuel to get me there. It’s an honest case of it literally being “it’s not you, it’s me”, when I’m unable to accept an invite. Or I accept with great anticipation (as apposed to expectations!), then have to cancel last minute when reality hits home, tank is empty, no going out for me. This is majorly disappointing and I have to accept and move through those emotions created from that, which adds another element of challenge for me.

I have and do make peace with this aspect of my being and I am grateful to have the energy I do currently have. I’d deeply appreciate some more.

Especially now my brain is improving, I’d dearly love for the rest of my body to catch up.

I know my body and being are still healing and I’m still in a state of recovery. I know too it makes no difference how much I want a part of me to heal now, my body is chief prioritiser, miracle maker and it chooses in what order my healing takes place. Energy levels mustn’t be up there as a priority yet. There is more important healing taking place.

Plus, I fully own the fact I did way to much too soon in my earlier stages of recovery and more than likely set myself back some. In hindsight, roller skating, dancing and movement mixed with numerous personal development workshops, weren’t necessarily a priority for me. Fun yes, beneficial too in many ways, not the best timing. Great intentions.

Overall yes, I am kind and gentle on myself. I guess I’m curious and would like to know how you make your energy. In particular if you’ve returned from a place of chronic/adrenal fatigue, major illness and or low energy in general.

On the outside I look well.
All appears as it is meant to appear.
If you didn’t know I’d been unwell and was in recovery, I’d hazard a guess you’d never know.

So indulge with me for a moment if you will and imagine me being like a balloon. When blown up, a balloon looks fabulous, it’s smooth, shiny, full of life and fun to be around. For the most part, it copes wonderfully well with its surroundings, floating about effortlessly.

However, you put trauma on the balloon and sure, sometimes, it momentarily still looks great, then down its goes, deflated, depleted, not looking so good at all and that’s taking the slow route.

That’s how I feel. I look well on the outside and don’t look any different to any other well looking person. In reality it only takes a split second to go from feeling okay to more like the balloon loosing it’s air and home I have to go or stay, before I deflate completely.

Unlike a balloon though, once it’s popped, I can regenerate and return to my fabulous, smooth, shiny, full of life, fun to be around existence once more.

Energy restoration in progress.

It just takes time.

Lots and lots of time.

I’m after new ideas and ways of creating more energy in my life.

Energy for engaging.

Energy for thriving.

Energy for shifting beyond surviving.

What gets you going?

What fuels your being?

In case you’re wondering, yes, I am in a peaceful place. Feeling grateful for my present, content with my past and excited for my future. I feel whole in other words. Fully loving and accepting of who I be and how I choose to show up in the world.

Even more so now I’m back to writing regularly. Passion point restored.

FYI, I believe we have an abundance of energy, regardless of our age. It’s when there is a challenge, trauma and so forth in the body, that stores are depleted, with little to no time to replenish, before being exhausted once more. Doesn’t matter what digits you have after your name whatsoever.

A body in balance hums along with precision.

Energy?

How do you make yours?

How do you use yours for best results?

What have you found that works for you?

Or I could let this desire to have more energy now go, keep being grateful and continue practising patience and trust my energy will be back in full swing, when it’s well and ready to do so.

Actually, I’ll do both!

After all, it is what it is.

Energy.

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