Hello beautiful people,
I know it’s been a while (again!) since I touched base with you, which we both know is nothing new here! For we also know when it comes to posting, I am very sporadic at the best of times! What I don’t get, is why? Why is it I don’t blog more regularly? Why are there such long pauses between each, most posts? Such a great question don’t you think?
All I can say is I’ve searched high and low, day and night, inside and out to figure that one out and the conclusion I have come to (for today anyway!) is purely and simply that sometimes, believe it or not, I find it incredibly challenging to sit down and extract the ideas, experiences, information etc. that are floating around in my head (that precious space between my ears!) and put them into some kind of legible, logical, emotive word format, that conveys exactly the essence of what it is I am trying to say, in an enjoyable, thought provoking, and simplistic way for you to read. Perhaps challenging is an understatement, it’s more like overwhelming!
Okay, let me stop here for a moment. Take a breath or two. Is this doing your head in as much as it is mine? What the! What am I on today? Is this me talking or a hangover from last nights full moon, married with this mornings lunar eclipse, spewing over in a mass of verbal diarrhea? Or maybe you get the gist of what I was trying to say earlier!
Now here’s an idea, how about I start again!
Hello beautiful people,
How are you?
How is life treating you at this very moment?
Are you well?
Are you happy?
How can I be of assistance to you today?
For many a month now I have been so totally absorbed in me, myself and I that perhaps I have (momentarily) forgotten about you.
I’ve been lapping up the attention big time, left right and center and I have to say, in being completely honest with you, (because we have that kind of relationship where I can be completely honest with you), that I’ve been thoroughly enjoying each and every ounce of it, for months now! Not just from putting myself out there in the public spotlight by sharing with you what it’s like living with and loving my bisexual husband. Also from enjoying the attention I have been receiving because of this new body of mine I get to walk around in too! That one, the new body one, more so than the other one, is the one I’m still getting use to! Not much phases me now when I talk about my relationship with Andrew, sex or sexuality. Though you throw me a complement about my appearance and I have to check it was me you were talking to!
I’m the lightest, fittest, strongest, healthiest, most confident I have ever been in my adult life and you know what, it shows! People take notice. Now when I say lightest I mean lightest! Since I first began writing this blog I am almost thirty kilos lighter than I was and well over, well over (repeated for emphasis!) forty kilos since I was at my heaviest, which was not that long ago either! And my body hasn’t yet reached it’s healthy medium!
So as vain as it may sound, bring it on I say! I have worked damn hard to be in this place of self acceptance, self love, self nurturing to courageously live my truth, shedding layer upon layer of fear and protection (literally!). And the best part of it all is I get to give that much more because of my newly found self wealth! In being so happy and content with my life others get to share in the benefits as well and not just my family either! There’s a quality of life that prevails now and every interaction I have with another is a quality interaction. Every interaction is a gift. My head is held high. My eyes sparkle. I’m engaged and engaging. I’m able to give, unconditionally. I’m willing to receive. And I’m here, I’m 100% here and accounted for.
As my world unfolds each and every day I have two options I can take. Lost and found! I can either lose myself in the moment (and attention!) – which yes can be good though not necessarily productive! Or I can be found. I can be conscious, aware, alert and open to receiving each little gem, each little treasure, each little piece of me that I didn’t even know existed until that very moment. What I’ve found most of all in amongst finding myself is just how organic my life truly is. Everything I am and everything I know today could be so very different tomorrow! An opportunity to be found once more!
So that is where I sit today. And for some reason chose to share it with you. Maybe there is something in today’s musings that is a flow on from the full moon and the lunar eclipse. Either way I guess in being conscious, aware, alert and open, trusting too in ‘it being exactly what it is’ serves me well. I trust that it serves you well also.
So where are you sitting right now? Are you Lost or Found?
Love & hugs,
‘practice what you passion’®