Hello beautiful people,
Thought things were all fixed and blogging would resume as normal since my last post was a victorious one, alas it was not to be! Think this time I have it sorted, although we’ll just have to wait and see for sure won’t we!
Following is the post I had ready to go New Years Eve so please read it as if it is still New Years Eve! A little time travel may be required!
Au revoir, Auf Wiedersehen, Ciao, Sainara, Baai baai and Good Bye 2010. Thank you for a wonderful year. I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the opportunity to grow, learn, love, laugh, release, evolve and so forth that I have this year. I’d even go so far as to say that 2010 has been my best year yet!
Living my truth and embarking on my difference making journey has been one of the most profound and humbling experiences I’ve ever had. And to think it took me years to command the courage to do so! What was I thinking? Clearly I was doing way too much thinking and not the right kind either!
I feel so alive, I feel so free, I feel so proud to be me. And the best part is my book isn’t even out yet! Imagine what I’ll be able to achieve once it is! Already is has been such a privilege and an honor (and no doubt will continue to be) to assist others in a similar situation as mine.
Just because you have a husband whose sexual expression is bisexual doesn’t have to mean the end of your relationship or the end to your intimacy either. In my case it was my greatest gift. Nothing compares to the bliss of loving another unconditionally, regardless of their sexual orientation.
Forgiveness and love were the main keys that unlocked the doors to all that I have today, that I know for sure. As too did being aware of my thinking!
If you think loving happy thoughts then that is exactly what you will receive. I know, I know, how are you supposed to do that when you’re as mad as hell for being put in this situation in the first place! Send him love, send him forgiveness, I don’t think so. A voodoo doll is more like it!
Believe me when I tell you that to do this, to really do this, miracles can occur. I’m more in love with my husband today than what I was twenty-two years ago when we first started dating and I knew nothing of his secret sexual encounters with men back then! And when I was finally able to forgive him, forgive what he was doing, little did I know how free I would feel, how much love would pour into my heart.
It may not happen overnight and if you’re anything like me it could even take you years and years! Had I known at the onset of disclosure that it all came down to my thinking; it may well have been as quick as overnight!
What I did learn though, as with anything you want to master successfully is it takes practice, lots and lots of practice! This situation is no different. Therefore practicing forgiveness, practicing loving unconditionally, practicing all the things required to truly create the life you deserve is surely worth the effort, wouldn’t you agree?
And before you allow that question to enter your head, ‘the why should it be up to me to fix everything when it wasn’t my fault to begin with’, stop and pause for a moment and ask yourself does it really matter? If it means you can live your happily ever after does it really matter where the healing comes from? Think about that!
In finishing up, I want to send out a big thank you for all the love, support and encouragement you have given me throughout 2010. I have appreciated your comments and the personal emails as well. Stepping outside the box can be a daunting experience, to say the least! Knowing that by doing so I truly can make a difference makes it all worthwhile.
And to my husband and my children, thank you for trusting me with my purpose and allowing me to share my experiences, learnings and intimate details with others so publically. You are my world and I love you all dearly, unconditonally, always.
May 2011 be bigger, brighter, bolder, full of (more) unconditional love, forgiveness (if required), healing (again if required), trust, respect, abundance on all levels and so on. May it be everything you imagine it to be and then some!
Cheers to a wonderful New Year.
Love & hugs,
‘practice what you passion’®