Hello beautiful people,
Don’t you just love life?
I do, I love my life. With all that it has been, all that it is, and all that it will be.
Sometimes I just have to remind myself of this fact! Especially when I realise I’ve wandered beyond the safe borders of my comfort zone and entered the unchartered territory of my growth zone – again! And boy do I feel like I’ve been doing a lot of that lately.
This time there must be something big bubbling under the surface waiting to pop, for it has been a long, long time since I’ve felt this stretched and uncomfortable in the zone of growth. POP! POP! POP I tell you! POP already! If only it where that simple.
It all started a couple of weeks ago when Andrew and I had an opportunity to head up to NSW for a few days to do some personal and spiritual development work. The course itself was fabulous, an eye opener on many levels and the people we shared this experience with were none other than true beings of light and love, mates of the soul if you like.
It’s when I got back home and the busyness of talking with agents and directors et al that I realised transformation was taking place and resistance was starting to get the better of me. In fact hissy fits and uncontrollable tears seemed to be the order of the day.
Let alone adding to that the ignorance of an industry so huge and beyond my knowing that confusion at every turn was guaranteed to do my head in.
You know what? It still fascinates me that when I am pure of heart and pure of consciousness, synchronicity is at play and flow is easy and enjoyable. Life is easy and enjoyable. When I am not of pure heart or pure consciousness, I can block myself at every turn and fall into overwhelm with just about everything life has to offer. Thank goodness that during these times of discomfort I can view, (in the words of Ronan Keating himself), ‘life as a rollercoaster – just gotta ride it’, and it’s actually okay to be feeling the way that I do. The ups and the downs are all a part and parcel of the journey. If I was to resist this, that’s when I know I’d be in real trouble!
Stuff is going to keep coming up. I wouldn’t be here if having a bisexual husband was considered the ‘norm’! Comfort zones are going to be continually pushed and I am constantly going to enter and re-enter the zone of growth. Thankfully courage is something that I am very grateful to have a lot of, even if it means at times I take a big breath, hold my nose, shut my eyes and jump straight in, floaty or no floaty! I know it’s worth it.
I guess what it all boils down to is the knowing that I am so much more than what I do. It’s who I am that makes the difference, the real me.
POP! Oops, false alarm!
Love & hugs,
‘practice what you passion’®